2024-08-19

I was once privileged to be shared a belief that another Bi-Polar person had had delusions they possessed super powers and believed in monsters.

I was honoured because these thoughts have circled my mind before, sometimes as if taking over the whole river of my subconscious and clouding it with dark shadowy and murky water.

I believe many of the monsters, both in our minds and in reality come from unresolved issues we have – that is as individuals; people; friends & “enemies”; families; lack of knowledge / understanding / experience and so on.

After feeling as if my whole being was unravelling and my soul was being shredded and stolen by the greed of others I was somehow caught, put back together and shown I haven’t lost as much as I had thought.

The path is still hard, I have challenges, which I struggle with, that others would not bat an eyelid at. Yet I feel just being, just being calm, just being happy is appreciated by the people around me now – and it is enough, and more than I or they could ask for in some bizarre way.

My not so super power, that feels like magic exists is being able to sleep; to have conversations and not arguments where someone has to win or lose; to not worry my family.

The knock on effects is it lets them have well needed sleep; to talk happily and humorously; to be part of a safe and content family.

I believe and hope that this effect knocks on further than them too, there is a whole planet of people who deserve peace, and we all need help to get it sometimes.

I am feeling more connected, and the shadows of my mind are not so scary because I know I am not alone, we have people who go through the same thing or similar things and somehow, sometimes – we are lucky enough to be given the chance to see our lives from a different angle.