# Tanster Hub

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Writing My Way Through Mental Health

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## Posts

- [My Blog](https://tansterhub.uk/my-blog/): Finding the Sanity With-In-Sanity
- [The Burden of Burdens](https://tansterhub.uk/my-burden-of-burdens/): [Written: 2025-02-07] I have felt like this for since I can remember; every action monitored and corrected. Every hoped used as a cattle prod to urge me in the direction of somebody else's choosing. Every word analysed and weight and energy added to it; a spinning planet for me to collide into for the amusement
- [A Forgotten Woe](https://tansterhub.uk/a-forgotten-woe/): [Written: 2024-11-25] A forgotten woe shook me tonight, A love letter found in the basement at twilight. A friend was lost and possibly more, A guilt that resonated to my core. It was only after you walked out the door, That I realised how much you I did adore. I don't want it to happen
- [The Words of a Crazy Man / The Words of a Devoted Man? (Learning to Speak Lusts of the Heart)](https://tansterhub.uk/the-words-of-a-crazy-man-the-words-of-a-devoted-man-learning-to-speak-lusts-of-the-heart/): This is poem to annotate part of what I see as a balance of being human. A part of Yin and Yang. A part of what has created life as we know it.
- [Cosmic Reality](https://tansterhub.uk/cosmic-reality/): 'Cosmic Reality' - a poem to annotate a small tribute to the light that brings my world to life and keeps me moving forwards I'd like to be in a place, Where anything I say or do that takes shape. Would be a tribute to her and her grace, The girl and woman that gives
- [Why do I Try? Because of you.](https://tansterhub.uk/why-do-i-try-because-of-you/): When I hit the dark times I ask myself "why do I try?", Because, it feels like I'm in an icy cemetery buried alive. All I see is black skies and nobody to stand by my side, Life feels empty and I missed my time to shine. I hit the end of the road and
- [The Day I Left You](https://tansterhub.uk/the-day-i-left-you/): 'The Day I Left You' - A poem that puts into words how overwhelming, exciting, powerful and fragile the journey of finding oneself is The day I left you I became so small, I found myself in a world of giants who grew so tall. Further down darkness I do fall, But, there's a man
- [Divine Light](https://tansterhub.uk/divine-light/): 'Divine Light' - a short poem annotating a recurring experience and a vision I had. At moments I feel complete, then immediately I fall apart As the Sun rose, And the day roles. My bipolar mind, Had exhilarating highs. Then the night sky, Crept in silent like. I didn't even hear the Sun say bye,
- [Time and Space](https://tansterhub.uk/time-and-space/): 'Time and Space' - is a short poem that deciphers from my thoughts and feelings about people I love or am drawn to I have never found a permanent place, In the worlds of time and space. For your blindingly alluring face, Emanating radiance and sublime grace. My eyes cannot see what you see, Etched
- [Celestial Drifting](https://tansterhub.uk/celestial-drifting/): 'Celestial Drifting' - is a poem I can't really explain. The words laid heavy on my mind and I really needed to say them You are the shadowless shadow, Of the mind that is hallowed. I know now for sure where you were, As your words wrap around the parts of me left on this
- [The Shifting Tides of You and I](https://tansterhub.uk/the-shifting-tides-of-you-and-i/): 'The Shifting Tides of You and I' - is a poem linking the known to the unknown, and making space for imagination I awaken aware, I have been talking to my mind like there's somebody there. I look to the sky at night, I can see stars and moonlight. The moon God's pupil, The black
- [Today](https://tansterhub.uk/today/): 'Today' - A poem annotating a thought process and belief that helped me get through life, to where ever I am today I wake up today, I imagine a peaceful place. The beginning of a world you might say, As quiet as night and as clear as day. I look for God, I see her
- [My Heaven](https://tansterhub.uk/my-heaven/): 'My Heaven' - a short poem to about love and lust. I'm trying to describe the sheering pull women have, I probably couldn't do it justice Questions always seem to break me, But the answers, somehow make you it seems. Can you lose yourself so much, In wanton fiery lust. That when it is just
- [Doves & Corvids](https://tansterhub.uk/doves-corvids/): 'Doves & Corvids' -a poem describing my mind processing time, people, love & life. Bipolar minds are difficult to navigate for all parties Who am I? I do not know, A permanent answer is impossible to show. "Who was I?" is the way to go, Because I can only respond to the past below. Your
- [The Cost of the Loss of God](https://tansterhub.uk/the-cost-of-the-loss-of-god/): Today I mourn the loss of God, The day they say man controls his destiny with thoughts. That day, That maybe close or far away, In the past or future, who can say. But, does a mans actions solely define who he is? No definition from a lovers gentle kiss? No credit to give anybody
- [I Trust Us](https://tansterhub.uk/i-trust-us/): I Trust Us - a rhyming poem to depict a time in my life where for a moment my past heart ache and life turmoil was at peace. Whatever way my spaghetti words fall, On this paper, doesn't matter at all. Or how my brain mistranslates, Way before or after the gate. I couldn't have
- [The Day I Was Born](https://tansterhub.uk/the-day-i-was-born/): The day I was born was the day I met Death, She seemed so human, that was except. Her voice rearranged you to an uneasy feeling, Her focus so unnerving, I thought I was dreaming, In her eyes revealed the story of an immortal being. She was not so old, a child but complex, Even
- [Washed Away](https://tansterhub.uk/washed-away/): 'Washed Away' - A short poem of love, broken hearts and painful recovery. I am washed away, With memories and wishes today. My words delicate, but like grenades, How twisted they come out when I try to serenade. You care for the stranger with the broken heart, With or without knowing, he has become your
- [In the Daylight](https://tansterhub.uk/in-the-daylight/): 'In the Daylight' - is a short poem to bring tangible words to anyone who has suffered a broken heart and wished their life different You're absence burns in the roaring daylight, The Suns furious shadow cast flaming bright white. In the glistening moon light, The inverted eye of the sky. Draped in the darkness
- [You are my Meaning (Acrostic)](https://tansterhub.uk/you-are-my-meaning-acrostic/): You are my Meaning (Acrostic) - is a poem dedicated to the love of my life. It is an acrostic, the first letter of each line spells the title Your elegant poise, Obliviates the worlds noise. Under scarlet torn skies, Answers from your galaxy ridden eyes. Reacting with your energy, Every wave felt tidal
- [The Start and End of the Line](https://tansterhub.uk/the-start-and-end-of-the-line/): The Start and End of the Line - A poem about love and lust, which becomes overcomplicated in a bipolar mind New is flesh, Old is form. I haven't tasted you yet, Sacred like a holy life form. Flesh new, it's you. Form old, forces ancient unfold. Stuck still, I am yours to do what
- [Where I Belong](https://tansterhub.uk/where-i-belong/): Where I Belong - a poem annotating a thought cycle my mind gets stuck in quite often, maybe it's my bipolar, maybe it's part of being human When life feels like walking the valley of the shadow of death, I find these strange switches in my head. And I don't know what they do yet,
- [The Bi-Polar Man in The Bi-Polar Land](https://tansterhub.uk/the-bi-polar-man-in-the-bi-polar-land/): Being Bi-Polar can sometimes feel like being told to do something; and then once it has been done, being told it your choice and your fault for doing it. Like even a breathe of air can and has to be justified; like even a thought has to be explained before you are allowed to dwell
- [Ghosts in the Shell](https://tansterhub.uk/ghosts-in-the-shell/): Ghosts in the Shell - A poem to try and annotate a part of what it can be like living with bipolar in a poetic form I feel like... These aren't my hands, They do what they want on their own. These aren't my thoughts, They walk in the darkness alone. Possessed by everything, Not
- [A Forgotten Time](https://tansterhub.uk/a-forgotten-time/): A Forgotten Time - a poem to depict the shadow cast by a crazy persons mind, and how we have the power to overcome that darkness An obsidian soul casts no reflection, How could it be caught by your attention. First stones throne without sin did I mention, What to do with evil in detention.
- [Here Everywhere](https://tansterhub.uk/here-everywhere/): Here Everywhere - a poem depicting how if we let our minds live in the past for too long, we could lose what we have at the present I know where I need to be, I take cues from the love I see. Lost in pain of thoughts losing you, Like the edge of a
- [A Drifting Part of Me](https://tansterhub.uk/a-drifting-part-of-me/): A Drifting Part of Me - a poem to describe a feeling I get with worded visual cues of what it can feel like in my mind I recall a feeling like dying, I found myself a forgotten memory. An oblivion of flying, Everything lost in drudgery. A letter read unopened, A fish on
- [Restricted in Infinity](https://tansterhub.uk/restricted-in-infinity/): Restricted in Infinity - a poem where I highlight possibly unavoidable or unanswerable, subconscious thoughts I seem to have with bipolar In this poem that is written mostly in A,B,A,B format. I try to express some of the issues that I have with my thoughts, how they translate on paper, and how they are seen
- [Acceptance (Acrostic)](https://tansterhub.uk/acceptance-acrostic/): Acceptance (Acrostic) - a poem that help me take another step in coming to terms with my mental health condition The first line of this acrostic spells the same word as in the title; 'Acceptance'. I am coming to terms that my mind does think differently to most, and that there are things in the
- [The Amazing Effect You Have](https://tansterhub.uk/the-amazing-effect-you-have/): The Amazing Effect You Have - a poem to remind people what affect they have on people by just being themselves It's mainly aimed at loved ones, people with mental health issues or people with low self esteem. I wanted these people, who feel judged with double standards, or who feel too singled out or
- [Eternally](https://tansterhub.uk/eternally/): Eternally - a poem dedicated to love. I cannot always articulate what I want to say, but here I attempt to translate words from my heart Sometimes I wish I did not exist except when I am thinking of you, I wish I knew what part of you was the test too. I wish I
- [How my life can feel sometimes - or maybe it's a feeling we all share??](https://tansterhub.uk/how-my-life-can-feel-sometimes-or-maybe-its-a-feeling-we-all-share/): I feel as if being explored from the inside out. But I try to view it from any other angle; nothing changes; and it seems to remain the same. Does all life feel like this. All life does feel like this. This life feels like all. All this life like feel. Feel all this does
- [How Love Songs Sound in a Bi-Polar Brain](https://tansterhub.uk/how-love-songs-sound-in-a-bi-polar-brain/): From my point of view; every love song that has ever been sung gets scrambled in my brain [and makes me feel like Bane from the Dark Knight]. The pain of the girl; woman or being is the focal point. Now I am written as a scar on the skin; to be picked up and
- [A small token of appreciation: for the Saviours in a life that almost went to waste.](https://tansterhub.uk/a-small-token-of-appreciation-for-the-saviours-in-a-life-that-almost-went-to-waste/): A Father to a son, maybe any son; is like Mufasa from the Lion King: a ferocious; wise and powerful beast that has learnt how to whom has not only learned how to survive in an insanely complicated world; he is the King of it; and he would lay his life down for his children.
- [During; afterwards; then before.](https://tansterhub.uk/during-afterwards-then-before/): As a man with at least three previous / current mental health conditions, which have been present at different points in my life; and I think are still present in different combinations on a daily basis; I am blogging for many reasons - to help me reconcile my life, mind and heart; to let others
- [My Sleep is Broken](https://tansterhub.uk/my-sleep-is-broken/): My Sleep is Broken - a short rhyming poem that captures the constant struggle with sleep and mental health My sleep is broken, my mind is choking. My tears are frozen, But they are always there and my thoughts provoke them. I'm walking the path with friends, but I feel so alone, I'm lost within
- [The Feeling of Grief](https://tansterhub.uk/the-feeling-of-grief/): The Feeling of Grief - A short poem to describe a wash of feelings that can only be described as grief. (This is a summation of a few things I am still grieving about, namely past loves, loves that will/are pass/ing, and the fact that one day I won't be here to remember any of
- [Somewhere in the Middle there is Life and Light](https://tansterhub.uk/a-bipolar-mind-connected-wrong-within/): Somewhere in the Middle there is Life and Light? - a short piece of creative writing to show a glimpse of what goes on in a bipolar mind My life looks back at me as I look at it, I thought I was through the worst, But I'm not even close to the grit. I
- [Rides, Tools, and Regenerates](https://tansterhub.uk/rides-tools-regenerates/): Rides, Tools, and Regenerates - A rhyming poem on my mental health blog to inspire you look at yourself from a different perspective I ride on the back of a giant God called man, Much from my life and time he did demand. But, after I saw his God for a first, She's a wonderful
- [Another Day, Another Start](https://tansterhub.uk/another-day-another-start/): Another Day, Another Start - A short rhyming poem on my mental health blog, highlighting burdens we all share as people. When man did begin, He was given everything. A whole world and a mother, Some sisters and some brothers. During his and the worlds first greeting, He'd steal girls hearts just as they had
- [Our Mother Earth](https://tansterhub.uk/our-mother-earth/): Our Mother Earth - a piece of rhyming poetry on my mental health blog that shows a way I view Earth and life at times. Our Mother Earth, a living tomb, The spirits of our ancestors are we. That are now back in Earths womb, And the evil that our lineage did see. Is always
- [What are these Thoughts?](https://tansterhub.uk/what-are-thoughts/): What are these Thoughts? - A short piece of rhyming poetry to touch upon the nature of thoughts and how they can be so evasive. Before my mind starts to storm, And it decides to take me too far from home. I ask myself "what are thoughts"? They are everything that we are, an ocean,
- [My Watery Grave](https://tansterhub.uk/my-watery-grave/): My Watery Grave - A creative piece of writing that explains using metaphors how a bipolar person can view mankind, or it feels like we are treated by others As I lay in my shallow, watery grave, I see my brothers as they tear deeper into the chest cavity of my corpse from beyond. They
- [Forces Beyond my Reckoning](https://tansterhub.uk/forces-beyond-my-reckoning/): Forces Beyond my Reckoning - a short entry to demonstrate the overwhelming nature of being human for a bipolar mind My days are blending into one. Always am I on the edge of an unfathomable whirlpool in an endless ocean. I feel like the last man on Earth. People seem like shells of what they
- [Questions; Musings and Theorems](https://tansterhub.uk/questions-musings-and-theorems/): Questions; Musings and Theorems - some short pieces on topics and ideas, of which I find interesting and / or unanswered. Can a man be both crazy and fixable at the same time? If no, why are doctors trying to fix them/us? If yes, what is the end game? I heard my mind
- [The Lightning inside my Mind](https://tansterhub.uk/the-lightning-inside-my-mind/): The Lightning inside my Mind - some thoughts I had during a thunder storm, noting similarities to my mental state At my darkest moment, as I leaned further into my shadow, a storm raged on inside and out. Blue, white and purple lightning struck outside whilst rain barraged my home, and thunder roared and rolled
- [Between Life and Death](https://tansterhub.uk/between-life-and-death/): Between Life and Death - is a piece of short rhyming poetry that hopefully conveys my perspective of what we are (or at least a part of it) We are the border between life and death, When all is done, more questions left. We choose to go forward or quit like the rest, We are
- [The Answers at the End of A Beginning](https://tansterhub.uk/the-answers-at-the-end-of-a-beginning/): 2024-07-27 In my mind the start of the universe, life and existence comes from a singular point of plurality and I believe that us humans (and most likely all forms of life - in one form or another) look for the answer of how it all started; that is the universe; time and space; life;
- [The Paradox](https://tansterhub.uk/the-paradox/): What is both real and fake at the same times? Life.
- [The Big Things We Can't See](https://tansterhub.uk/the-big-things-we-cant-see/): [Written: 2024-11-09] Today I was wondering how we all fit together in this extraordinarily complex and delicately balanced world. I came to the conclusion that all we all do fit together in unseeable ways of which we are still learning how or at least some of us are, myself included). But, it something else that
- [I Call Now](https://tansterhub.uk/i-call-now/): 2024-11-23 I call now to see where you are at, But, when you hear my call, your reply is flat. A studious answer is responded, Nothing new for my mind to bond with. Your answer thought through before we have begun, Now, a robot is what we have become. Our words pushing our minds to
- [A Place that Once Existed; or that Could](https://tansterhub.uk/a-place-that-once-existed-or-that-could/): [Written: 2024/11/24] I sit here in the chambers of the long dead and forgotten Gods I once judged; their powers coursing through my veins, memories and thoughts; like a maelstrom filled with lightning and shuddering thunder, lashing down on a cub. I could do anything here, create and obliviate worlds at the focus of a
- [The True and the Truth](https://tansterhub.uk/the-true-and-the-truth/): [Written:2024-11-25] The true version of you came to me in a dream, My young self asking you to let me in. You were worried and I could not see why, To win you over beg and plead I did try. You agreed to let me into your realm, And straight away I was overwhelmed. I
- [Waterfalling Minds](https://tansterhub.uk/waterfalling-minds/): [Written: 2024-12-30] I want to walk side by side with my sisters and brothers, But, to an issue my mind clutches. I can't hold onto my form, And not before long. I slip and slide in life's rushes, And I go like water over the fall, my mind mushes. For a second I just want
- [The Weight of a Life I did not Choose](https://tansterhub.uk/the-weight-of-a-life-i-did-not-choose/): [Written: 2025-02-20] I find myself drifting in a vast ocean, invisible but tangible bindings of my mind securely fasten my limbs together, and them in turn to my body, head and neck. I have become immobile. I wage a war in my mind that does not belong to you or to me. I feel myself
- [To be Human](https://tansterhub.uk/to-be-human/): [Written: 2025-02-02] These humans will strip you bare of all your fears, you wont be sure if you are an animal, a sentient being, an artificial intelligence, a lost god or even human. But, you will learn to trust their kind and gentle hold, even though their power can feel overwhelming at times. And you
- [The Worlds Madness](https://tansterhub.uk/the-worlds-madness/): [Written: 2025-02-02] When the mad world has to define people as insane just to justify its own sanity, does that make the person insane, or the world.
- [The Fast Man](https://tansterhub.uk/the-fast-man/): The Fast Man is a short story and a poem of sorts. It explains in my own way how lost I can feel just living day to day. The biggest thing I think any imaginative child could dream of becoming is God like. But, the problem of the rest of the world chasing you is
- [Acceptance](https://tansterhub.uk/acceptance/): Acceptance - a piece of rhyming poetry to demonstrate acceptance relating to my experience with mental health I wade through my mind as like a ship blunders through a foggy ocean, Neither day nor night helps clarify my vision, the fog is boasting. I get to the forefront and open my minds eye, Just to
- [Tribute](https://tansterhub.uk/tribute/): Tribute - A short poem in tribute to my parents I was lost, I felt so small, My mum, my dad, they gave their all. They gave me brothers and sisters, then when we fall, They taught us to pick each other up and to stand tall. Even when there was no me, they fought
- [The Day](https://tansterhub.uk/the-day/): The Day - A short poem to put a positive spin on the everyday struggles of people with mental health struggles. Everyday I wake at the end of time, By night, I rest my head somewhere in the beginning. Around the middle I find, A mission that's been self delivering. Not everything experienced can be
- [Sick and Tired](https://tansterhub.uk/sick-and-tired/): I am sick and tired of being sick and tired, Of people looking at me funny and having my brain rewired. And being sedated and having so much to do, Of finding my mind which I know again I'm just about to lose. I don't know what lesson I should have learnt, From the fires
- [I Know](https://tansterhub.uk/i-know/): I feel like skin stretched out then placed on and over people and objects that don't resemble me. And you, the world, have the ability to summon me and wrap me around your finger, or exile me to the furthest corners of the universe at you whim. And then you ask me the same question
- [Questions Difficult to Answer - Bipolar Minds](https://tansterhub.uk/questions-difficult-to-answer-bipolar-minds/): These questions difficult are to answer for me and my bipolar mind: "Why am I like I am?" "What do I want?" and "If there was one thing you could change, what would it be?". I want people to ask themselves those questions. Then ask their shoes; their hands and their pens. I want them
- [I Dream](https://tansterhub.uk/i-dream/): [Written: 2025-03-05] I dreamt I had died last night, As I sped into the darkness I did not feel fright. Until I got trapped in Death's eye sight, Feeling crushed by the unrelenting grip of his minds eye. Then I heard a voice and saw a bright light, The voice I knew as God said
- [I Wonder](https://tansterhub.uk/i-wonder/): [Written: 2025-02-28] I Wonder - about life - an attempt to understand why things are as they are. I wonder if we made it to Heaven. Where all the answers of the unknowable were revealed. Where we could individually create our own dream worlds with immortality. I wonder if in that place the most exciting,
- [The Many of One](https://tansterhub.uk/the-many-of-one/): [Written: 2025-02-25] This is a short writing to pay tribute to women on International Women's Day. I aim to depict the elusive pull that women command. I feel lost in the awe of her. I swear she could be a shape shifting goddess, where every single strand of her hair uncountable lengths of flowing hair
- [Who Am I](https://tansterhub.uk/who-am-i/): [Written: 2025-02-19] Am I the unborn child in his mothers womb, Am I the Baby who just laughed cried, ate and slept too? Am I the toddler who skimmed his knee and called for mummy, Am I the boy who had a gift and a chance to make of himself something? Am I the teenager
- [My Perspective of Her](https://tansterhub.uk/my-perspective-of-her/): This is a short poem to show the beauty and hold of women from my perspective. I can see your cosmic energy engulfing galaxies and universes behind your wide eyes, Your body so graceful and elegant. And your body is just the tip of your mind, It's not easy to see the wonders of
- [My Angel](https://tansterhub.uk/my-angel/): [Written: 2025-02-11] When your fingers brush my ear in the dark and quiet middle of night, the room grows into a galaxy, and you, an angel with the power of an ocean in her touch, guided with the graceful art of a violinist. The room blackened by night cannot hide your glowing form, as you
- [Evolving Answers](https://tansterhub.uk/evolving-answers/): [Written: 2025-01-04] I walk in the world that that you always had the answers for. We are gifted with borrowed arcane knowledge only a cobbler would be privy to; to give another the ability to walk the journey of life; you give yourself that gift, too; even if not side by side. Sometimes though, I
- [It's Complicated](https://tansterhub.uk/its-complicated/): [Written: 2025-02-10] Imagine the future of the human race. How far will it go? With technology there may be nanobots available to help look after offspring, that could fill the subconscious mind with soothing sounds or frequencies to keep the calm, relaxed and even healthy (by avoiding unnecessary prolonged stressful periods). They could potentially detect
- [The Demi-Demon in my Mind](https://tansterhub.uk/the-demi-demon-of-my-mind/): [Written: 2025-02-07] I start my day, awake, staring at the demi-demon of my mind. I look for my strengths, my family, my wife, the world. But, my demi-demon, the apparently living part demon and part god being, that will not die or remove itself from my brain and life. It whispers out loud that I
- [I am Sorry](https://tansterhub.uk/i-am-sorry/): [Written: 2025-02-03] I am sorry that you make make me feel so empty, when you fill me with your words I can't find what's left of me. I am sorry I feel like a thief when you give me your time. I am sorry I feel so incapable when you shelter me. I am sorry
- [Glitching Film Reels](https://tansterhub.uk/glitching-film-reels/): [Written: 2025-02-02] A lot of times I feel I have died and gone to heaven, where we can all create the lives that we want. I can express myself, and although it doesn't make sense to all, it makes sense to me. I get reminded that I need to live my life, even though in
- [This is me](https://tansterhub.uk/this-is-me/): [Written: 2025-01-__] Image being a small conscious particle, that is alive in a choatic churning machine. Imagine other conscious particles pulling you to safety and unlocking potentials in you. Then you try to use these new found skills to helps others. But, they just instantaneously push you and everyone close back into the churning machine.
- [The Beauty in your Name](https://tansterhub.uk/the-beauty-in-your-name/): [Written: 2025-01-16] The beauty in you name, Takes away all of my pain. Your breath takes me so high, That I want to die. Because now heaven looks like hell, From the insatiably beautiful place you took me as far as I can tell. Your ethereal grace, Can be seen from outer space. I want
- [My Private Hope / Or is it; My End Game?](https://tansterhub.uk/my-private-hope-or-is-it-my-end-game/): [Written: 2025-01-22] As we slow in our ageing lives to let our overbearing memories scarper, Our last rite of passage before we speed past the infinite, We will find ourselves once again.
- [My Catch 22](https://tansterhub.uk/my-catch-22/): [Written: 2025-01-22] The medication makes me feel as if floating through time and space, somehow detached from both. I feel only capable of letting people down. Tired, and tired of being tired, haunted by memories, mementoes, loss, grief, love and warmth. I struggle to motivate, to stand, to focus, to justify (myself and my position),
- [Word Chains and World Planes](https://tansterhub.uk/word-chains-and-world-planes/): [Written: 2025-01-24] As I sink into the icy depths and darkness of my mad mind, I lash out with words, to keep me a float. Or maybe I latch onto them. I don't know if the free me, or chain me; chain me to a ghost or mirage of myself. But I do know two
- [The Weight of my Tiny Violin](https://tansterhub.uk/my-tiny-violin/): [Written: 2025-01-21] Sometimes my life feels like violin bow strings that have been selected and strung by the hand of another. Don't get me wrong, I love the resonance and sound that it makes when pulled against the world of the violin, and the harmony these make in the ears and orchestra halls of my
- [Mentality Zeroed](https://tansterhub.uk/mentality-zeroed/): [Written: 2025-01-15] It's mental, how mental, normal people feel, when mental people, act mental. -Explanation: In this short sentence, I am trying to convey several things. Starting with how much we read into possibly small things, such as words or ideas. At first glance it may seem like the writer (myself) is attempting to nullify
- [Melodie Song](https://tansterhub.uk/melodie-song/): [Written: 2025-01-15] As we learn to sing our songs, Our melodies of our lives. We wake up even lighter, The sun has rose so bright. There's happy dogs with wagging tails, Beautiful flowers, bees and open seas. Our mother earth is blooming bright, As we eat our cakes and drink coffee. Our world is such
- [The Patience of a Mental Patient](https://tansterhub.uk/the-patience-of-a-mental-patient/): [Written: 2025-01-15] The insomniac: "I can't get no sleep." The mental patient: "My mind has never woken up (so they say), so it has never had a chance to go to sleep. Have I only known sleep or never known it? I have been waiting my whole life, so I don't expect an answer now."
- [Words First](https://tansterhub.uk/words-first/): [Written: 2025-01-15] This matrix, this birthplace, This design we live in. This mankind made concrete jungle, A place that couldn't have been there from the beginning. A creation, an addition, A new thing, an extension. We can use it to explore, Capture / make / take a reward. Carve new paths, open new doors, We
- [The Middle](https://tansterhub.uk/the-middle/): [Written: 2025-01-14] Your name a beautiful poem, To lay my weary head in. I thank you for you kindness, I thank you for your welcome. You taught me how to surpass myself, You taught me how to surpass you too. You made it seem so easy, Now, I feel a fool. Because I know how
- [Hazy Reality and Fleeting Dreams](https://tansterhub.uk/hazy-reality-and-fleeting-dreams/): [Written: 2025-01-13] I doze into an awaking, The chaotic world so clear. It hazes my dreams again, Clarity escapes me already I fear. Waiting for my mind to catch up to me, It grinds on every gear. No clarity can focus me to see, My heart and soul are spent my dear. I am forgetting
- [As I Walk Through the Valley of the Shadow of Her](https://tansterhub.uk/as-i-walk-through-the-valley-of-the-shadow-of-her/): [Written: 2025-01-13] As I stare death in the face, I knew I had seen her before. If you have seen it once, You have seen it all. She must be a woman, Who could devastate us all. And pick up the pieces, Of all our hearts before too far we fall. So we don't burn
- [Body Bags](https://tansterhub.uk/body-bags/): [Written: 2025-01-13] You have put my in a body bag with your dismembering words more times than I can count. You box me into corners, break me down, box me up, and tell me to put myself back together again. How long can we go on like this? Are you not running out of ways
- [When I come to Terms](https://tansterhub.uk/when-i-come-to-terms/): [Written: 2025-01-11] When I come to terms with myself, who I was becomes just a part of the new me that I am yet to come to terms with.
- [A Voice Inside & Today](https://tansterhub.uk/a-voice-inside-today/): [A Voice Inside - Written: 2025-01-10] A voice inside, or maybe a feeling, told me that I have been born again today. And I have been granted the highest rank and honours in existence: citizenship. The same goes for almost the rest of the world. I will not have to fight war, design weapons or
- [Can You?](https://tansterhub.uk/can-you/): [Written: 2025-01-10] I can't tell which voices in my head are real anymore, Because you told me I was mad. I had a creative and imaginative voice; A spiritual one for remembering family gone. I had a narrator; And one that would check corners that have been missed; And of course: my voice. The world
- [The Demon and Me](https://tansterhub.uk/the-demon-and-me/): [Written: 2025-01-09] On a Daily basis the demon asks me " why do you go on? You can give up now, you know you don't belong. You are like butter spread too thinly over bread, you have gone on too long, Just throw the towel in, quit whilst you're behind, stop being a moron. What
- [A New Year to Remember](https://tansterhub.uk/a-new-year-to-remember/): [Written: 2025-01-07] The falling brown leaves, The black icy streets. A New Years Eve, Another time to be. Fresh from our woes, As we step on new snow. I remember all who made me, And gave me a place to breathe. Life budding into view, Blooms colourful. A world waking gently, For you and I
- [Inbound](https://tansterhub.uk/inbound/): [Written: My shattered and fragmented mind is on a collision course with your world; your mind that can hold galaxies in orbit; with you. The physical world is nothing to me but a window; you have become my edges.
- [Bound to Happen](https://tansterhub.uk/bound-to-happen/): [Written: 2025-01-02] It happened; I broke down. Now my only choice is to move forward. I analyse the different parts of me that make me me. My mind; my body; and my experiences. My mind overthinks and resolves; stopping my body in its tracks. My body hibernates and repairs itself; stopping my mind from experiencing
- [In-Between Disinhibition and Aphasia](https://tansterhub.uk/in-between-disinhibition-and-aphasia/): [Written: 2024-12-23] This is my hundredth post, so I thought I'd share how I view myself , and I know it is difficult to analyse your own brain, but I want to give it a try. Firstly, I'll talk about disinhibition. It is a word I only discovered recently, but it holds quite a large
- [Down the River Flow](https://tansterhub.uk/down-the-river-flow/): [Written: 2024-12-23] My wandering mind leads to my wandering soul, You are tied into every memory that I could possibly own. I feel myself falling like water through a sieve, Even though I can't hold onto you now, I know you were life's perfect gift. With ordinary words, you speak in my memory, My whole
- [Discovering You in the Confusion](https://tansterhub.uk/discovering-you-in-the-confusion/): [Written: 2024-12-15] I am found in the confusion. In the confusion I am found. I am found in my confusion. I am found in a confusion. The confusion is mine and mine alone. The confusion belongs to others and I need not worry about it. The confusion is mine, and it is shared. All statements
- [Being Me in My World](https://tansterhub.uk/being-me-in-my-world/): [Written: 2024-12-15] I get to points that I feel so broken and damaged that I am near death. Then somehow I feel I am lowered by angels to a place soft enough to land. My head feels heavy an to me it's like lifting the whole world. After some time, I manage to pull it
- [The Fat Christmas Turkey](https://tansterhub.uk/the-fat-christmas-turkey/): [Written: 2024-12-10] Today I feel like that, the fat Christmas turkey. It feels I was took in, raised in shelter and warmth, and fed ample food until I was barely able to move. Then my time was over, my neck snapped, my body basted and roasted, and devoured by a hungry family. My bones discarded
- [The Outline in my Memories](https://tansterhub.uk/the-outline-in-my-memories/): [Written: 2024-12-11] For a second, my love, I see you, a clear outline in my memories. But, then you blur into everything and everyone. I mark out your edges when I write, as I try to remember you again, hoping it makes sense to at least one of us.
- [The Unfathomable Power of Human Magic](https://tansterhub.uk/the-unfathomable-power-of-human-magic/): [Written: 2024-12-09] When we speak to each other we speak bones and form into the other; When we respond we add flesh and heart to the other; When we are done there is a new body for us to use individually and to share; We are creating tangible magic with our voices and our words;
- [Useless Magic](https://tansterhub.uk/useless-magic/): [Written: 2024-12-09] Emotions are stored in people; Memory is stored in sound? Belief is stored in suspense; Love is stored everywhere; All directions lead back to you. - Pain is remembering you; Lack of understanding is designed into (human) language to give time to memorise; And give time to create / discover the next step.
- [Is God a Question of Self?](https://tansterhub.uk/is-god-a-question-of-self/): [Written: 2024-12-10] If there was a first being that had infinite active and dormant powers; and it found itself somewhere and had to unlock to right combination of active and dormant powers to keep so that todays world could exist; and today's offspring are an evolution of that first being and are potentially more powerful;
- [The Inversion of the Big Bang](https://tansterhub.uk/the-inversion-of-the-big-bang/): [Written: 2024-12-08] It happens instantaneously over an infinity; Then people catch up to who you were; And you have to become who you are.
- [The Empty Throne and the Empty Crown](https://tansterhub.uk/the-empty-throne-and-the-empty-crown/): [Written: 2024-12-08] In my mind there is a kingdom furiously busy with dust and sticky webs. I heard you whisper to me in my dream that you would be my throne if you could be my crown. But, the only thing that manages to reside there are my haunted memories that have only helped prove
- [The Rising Sun](https://tansterhub.uk/the-rising-sun/): [Written: 2024-12-06] Uncountable particles, exploding furiously. A child sits in a world so confusing, it hurts his head. When a boy learns to stand, he will become a man. And one day he may become the father of a rising Sun, in a far off land.
- [The Crushing Autumn Leaves](https://tansterhub.uk/the-crushing-autumn-leaves/): [Written: 2024-12-03] The Autumn is upon me, The crushing leaves have fallen. There weight sheds off me too, A dying world is calling. You're calling me to you, So we can fight our battles. On the losses that have left us bereft, You stop the world from taking, Until there is no energy left. I
- [In Between Oblivion and Love](https://tansterhub.uk/in-between-oblivion-and-love/): [Written: 2024-11-28] You guide me to your safety, You have done it so gracefully. Yet, I know it takes so much, You tell my mind to hush. You show me a painting of beauty, You say a place for me your including. My world changes around me, A peaceful truth I can see. Though before
- [There was a Time and a Space](https://tansterhub.uk/there-was-a-time-and-a-space/): [Written: 2024-11-27] There was a time and a place, Where a naughty boy did but throw Christmas away. The presents we gave, Made no happiness stay. He cried and demanded his very own space, We had lots to give away. He learned to grow in his own way, He become a beloved part of the
- [A Scholar Without Scholarship](https://tansterhub.uk/a-scholar-without-scholarship/): [Written: 2024-11-27] A scholar without scholarship, A world created well. You learned an ancient language, Now for you no difference between heaven and hell. You made it to the end of time, A deep power in you does dwell. You rearrange the world, with the words that you do fell. You speak barriers into existence,
- [The Wise Best Friend](https://tansterhub.uk/the-wise-best-friend/): [Written: 2024-11-27] The dog was gentle with me on that day, It had my hand in its mouth, it could have crushed it away. I thought how wise he was, that he would still stay, He would not menace, he just drops into a lay. It is why the bullied sit so far away, No
- [How Bad Will it Get](https://tansterhub.uk/how-bad-has-it-got/): [Written: 2024-11-26] It began at the beginning of time, middle or end, A being so powerful it could summon itself. In and out of existence, it could escape or create hell. We didn't know what it was, but we could feel it did dwell, A mind so powerful it was as dense as a black
- [The Weathered Storm](https://tansterhub.uk/the-weathered-storm/): [2024-11-25] Be it ice, sleet or snow, Torrential rain and howling wind blows. I'll weather the storm that has been born and grown, Because on the other side, your light is beckoning me home. The storm lashes on in my mind zone, Jagged memories damaging my life song tone. I'd rather have you hold my
- [As I Tried to Say Goodbye](https://tansterhub.uk/as-i-tried-to-say-goodbye/): [Written: 2024-11-18] I felt we were parting on a random day, I saw you there guiding your energy, like a ray of light blinding all those who have strayed, A rabbit in headlights stuck in it's place. I try to hold on, a tiny spider lost in space, Your being; a guardian of a whole
- [Without You](https://tansterhub.uk/without-you/): [Written: 2024-11-13] When you are gone my world is like the solar system without a star; our Sun. Crashing through space with no centre to revolve around; I am scared of what I will become. The other planets lost in the abyss of space, like friends lost; and friends past; they are gone from this
- [One more Breath, One more Day](https://tansterhub.uk/one-more-breath-one-more-day/): [Written: 2024-11-13] The monsters you seek has no eyes, that you'll find, It lives inside, out of your mind. It's flesh is in the memories, of you and of me, It's waiting shadowless, biding it's time to be. It's weakness is unity, now it unbinds at the seam. If you close your eyes, just for
- [The World that Spins](https://tansterhub.uk/the-world-that-spins/): [Written 2024-11-13] The Earth on which we walk, Seems to gain momentum as people talk. How can this be, When it's all been done before me. Yet it seems I cannot to keep up, Further behind people, I get stuck. I see them far ahead, I call and watch them turn their head. From each
- [The Gift of the Poet](https://tansterhub.uk/the-gift-of-the-poet/): [Written: 2024-11-10 / Edited: 2024-11-11] He spoke to her in an ancient language as he conveyed his message with soul shifting words transposing the immortal Gods and their unknowably complex and intergalactically vast bodies into human form; attaching mortality to the infinite; and maybe also infinity to mortals; welcoming them to walk the Earth as
- [The Unnamed](https://tansterhub.uk/the-unnamed/): [Written 2024-11-08] Down by the sycamore tree, Where the wind does fall. Carrying our memory, To the ocean tall. Motion is a journey, Even in the fall. When we bend to our knee, We will hear life's call. The parents have the chance to see, Their babes break down the wall. Roots deeper than the
- [The Sacred Cemetery](https://tansterhub.uk/the-sacred-cemetery/): [Written: 2024-10-27] [Edited: 2024-11-08] I, the individual, am the care taker of the sacred cemetery of Earth. As our memories of our mortal bodies are reanimated by forces unknown, we scan for the forgotten and irreplaceable fragments of the things that we have lost in the blinding peacefulness of chaos and order that now brings.
- [A Mind as Still as Yours](https://tansterhub.uk/a-mind-as-still-as-yours/): [Written: 2024-10-22] -At the current moment my life; mind mind feels like a heavy ocean, and when it storms, the ocean tears my to bits and throws scattered pieces of my across the world. My lady is the corner stone that anchors me to the ground, and takes everything in her stride; and she picks
- [Capabilities](https://tansterhub.uk/capabilities/): [Written: 2024-10-21] Nowhere left to run, But, the beat of the drum goes on. Skills and experience unravelled, By priceless sense of pride in life travelled. I am devasted without means to hold my own, And consumed with a feeling of being alone. My path has ended here, With the rest of me, I see
- [The Glass Half Full](https://tansterhub.uk/the-glass-half-full/): [Written: 2024-10-18] A point of perspective, dare a say, Is it defined retrospective, of how it got that way. Was it being poured and left to sit? So, half full across the board, The verdict should gift. Or has it just been drank? Now half empty it is, this outcome should stand. Now my question
- [The Inconsistencies in the Rush of Time and Life](https://tansterhub.uk/the-inconsistencies-in-the-rush-of-time-and-life/): [Written: 2024-10-25] We arrive at a situation at the same time the situation arrives at us, A rush or panic holds us overwhelmed in our own little universe. We feel and fumble for a reason now, But, this obstacle of now could always be witnessed in the stream of down. How could we miss, Something
- [Unstabilising Beauty](https://tansterhub.uk/unstabilising-beauty/): [Written: 2024-10-13] A beam of light, As if the sun came out in the middle of the night. You reverse orders; sanity out of sight, Morality falling, what is wrong and what is right. Magnetism rearranging creation, Love feeling like devastation. Already weakened from fire behind your eyes, In an alternate reality my dream world
- [During; Afterwards and then Before](https://tansterhub.uk/during-afterwards-and-then-before/): [Written: 2024-10-13] During everyday life, including and possibly especially life with mental health issues, orders are constantly rearranged and "messed up". We have a problem; be it mental health wise or other; we deal with it; then we create and develop tools, methods and memories to tackle the same or similar issues if they happen
- [My Paranoid Mind](https://tansterhub.uk/my-paranoid-mind/): [Written: 2024-10-13] My paranoid mind reflects lies I see in your eyes, It deceives me and embellishes insecurity into fire and ice. I kill it with rhymes and tell it I know it spies, My mind dies, but the dead liar still lies. I tell myself I'm fine, And I'm not alone and I'm not
- [The Uncertainty Acquired from Diagnosis](https://tansterhub.uk/the-uncertainty-acquired-from-diagnosis/): [Written: 2024-10-12] I am not sure that after my diagnosis anything has become clearer. I now have bi-polar; before I had schizophrenia; and in between I had a misdiagnosis and "no mental health condition". Before my diagnosis of bi-polar I had what I can only assume to be a mini psychotic episode, where I heard
- [Thought Experiment for Immortals](https://tansterhub.uk/thought-experiment-for-immortals/): For this experiment we are going to say that you are immortal; and therefore there are also other immortals. And all immortals can have / will be able to have infinite forms; and any and infinite powers (including going into others minds). How would one or any person / animal / immortal know the difference
- [Question.](https://tansterhub.uk/question/): [Written: 2024-09-18] When living in the present feels like all the moments past - what is / will be new?
- [When the Poison is the Cure](https://tansterhub.uk/when-the-poison-is-the-cure/): [Written: 2024-09-18] When life roles, crushes and breaks you and you are left feeling poisoned; sometimes the best only way to cure yourself is role, crush and break yourself - so the world can never have that hold on you again.
- [I Just want to be Normal](https://tansterhub.uk/i-just-want-to-be-normal/): [Written: 2024-09-17] I want to be like the people who seem to be free, But, what is in my minds eye, I couldn't possibly be. And it does not align with what my eyes see, The world feels like an ocean to me. Others are like this too, I believe, Drowned in the waves of
- [She Is](https://tansterhub.uk/she-is/): [Written: 2024-09-16] She is the womb of the world; She is mother earth. She catches the love and memory of our people; She is fierce and gentle. She can be kind and forgive; She is boundless, but you should know which boundaries not to cross. She maybe what we call God; Or an angel that
- [The Beacon at the Mountain Peak](https://tansterhub.uk/the-beacon-of-the-mountain-top/): [Written: 2024-09-16] I am not the mountain towering towards the heavens; I am not its reflection on the glass of the lake disappearing into another dimension. Nor am I its root which maybe be as vast as the planet. I am not the turmoil of dark storm clouds orbiting above; Or the lightning striking anything
- [The Shadow of Night](https://tansterhub.uk/the-shadow-of-night/): What is the shadow of night? Is it cast by life and light? By our egotistical minds blundering strife? Does it hold fear like the edge of a knife? Does the knowledge belong, and could it be mine? A guess we may find out, but all in good time.
- [The Shadow of a Shadow](https://tansterhub.uk/the-shadow-of-a-shadow/): What is the shadow of a shadow, but self? And all of the world and people as well. Past, present, future, and heaven and hell? All the angels and demons that never sing farewell. A projection of mind, Stuck in one part of time. A longing or lust, That lets your life turn to rust.
- [Questioning Existence](https://tansterhub.uk/questioning-existence/): [Written: 2024-09-14] Do I question existence or does existence question me? You are part of existence, what answers do you seek? Do we just question, answer then repeat, Or do we answer questions and seek? For a piece of the world we can call our own, Where we don't have to get rolled over because
- [I Am the Peripheral](https://tansterhub.uk/i-am-the-peripheral/): [Written: 2024-09-14] When you focus on something I see things you don’t; Be careful where you step, but I bet that you won’t; Have seen the things that I have, I might be a ghost. If you don’t see me, doesn’t mean you are alone; Remember what your parents taught you if you are fully
- [She is Tenacious](https://tansterhub.uk/she-is-tenacious/): [Written: 2024-09-13] She is tenacious, Her body opens new sensations. Her voice as powerful as oceans, Her lips magical like potions. She is outrageous, Why is she not famous, She pulls me too anywhere with the flick of her hair, To challenge her I do not care to dare. The mystique pleasure from seeing her
- [The Budding Flower in the Night](https://tansterhub.uk/the-budding-flower-in-the-night/): [Written: 2024-09-10] To my friend Damone, I can't believe God has already taken you home. With laughter and love your presence has shown, That time time on Earth is a delicate thing to own. You were a budding flower in the dark of night, Everyone you spoke to could see your shinning light. As a
- [The Universe Alive in an Eye](https://tansterhub.uk/the-universe-alive-in-an-eye/): [Written: 2024-09-12] As I woke today I slowly remembered what happened yesterday, A friend lost, a toll that will cost his children dearly on the way, A huge man, but a tiny grain of sand in the infinite world we live in, Even though he donned angel wings that curved around the time and space
- [When You Speak to Me](https://tansterhub.uk/when-you-speak-to-me/): [Written: 2024-09-12] When you speak to me the full focus of who I am at that second is devoted to you, I become a voice for you to question and command. I become a small ant held by the alien gravity field of your voice, the ocean blue I’m pulled into, I become an object
- [Inside Out; and Outside In](https://tansterhub.uk/inside-out-and-outside-in/): [Written: 2024-09-09] The world outside of us is a big and complicated thing; But even the unknowns are defined, let me begin. The unknowns are unknown, now they are known; By exactly how much determined by who minds own. All things make sense out there if you look hard enough; But behind these eyes lies
- [Incompletely Complete](https://tansterhub.uk/incompletely-completed/): [Written: 2024-09-08] The moment I saw you I was complete; All aspirations I had dissolved within that first week. Everything I was became putty in your hands; Whatever I would be would be yours to demand. If I was a dream, I'd hang around the corners of your mind; If I was late I'd be
- [The Truth of the Surviving Desolated Soul](https://tansterhub.uk/the-truth-of-the-surviving-desolated-soul/): [Written: 2023-09-07] When you find yourself beyond alone, And no joy comes from the things that you own. When you are your own company at dark, And all you feel is a broken heart. Can you understand your mind has been damaged, And your pain has gone completely unmanaged. Your home only feels ice bitingly
- [My Brother, An Unstoppable Force](https://tansterhub.uk/my-brother-an-unstoppable-force/): [Written:2024-09-05] My brother, an unstoppable force, People knock on your door, To take shelter from storm, They love you. Your heart filled with warmth, People levitate towards, And won’t argue at all, As they trust you. When through hell they crawl, You walk standing tall, Picking us up from the floor, With unyielding cool, We
- [The Flickering Interpretation of an Autodidact](https://tansterhub.uk/the-flickering-interpretation-of-an-autodidact/): [Written: 2024-09-04 - Updated 2024-09-09] An 'autodidact' is someone who's self taught. I discovered the word when someone with the word in there name liked a post or two of mine (thank you for the new word and the likes :)). Maybe one of the reasons I struggle so much with words, language and people
- [The Unknown Influencer](https://tansterhub.uk/the-unknown-influencer/): [Written:2024-09-04] They said love is blind, It is when my eyes are guided by the electricity of your fingertips you may find. That’s all they see, Your breath, your words, they take over me. I don’t know what I was before, and I don’t know what to believe, My nakedness uncovered like Adam and Eve.
- [The Light Within the Darkness](https://tansterhub.uk/the-light-within-the-darkness/): [Written: 2024-09-03] When all you see is darkness; And all calls are unanswered regardless. When you are striped of your boundaries and boarders; And the oblivions fall toward us. And when you can't tell if you found the words or they found you; Can you look at this haunted emptiness anew. When there is nothing
- [The Misty Valley Where I Sleep](https://tansterhub.uk/the-misty-valley-where-i-sleep/): [Written: 2024-09-02] The misty valley is where I sleep; A place of beauty one can't keep. A small infinity my soul to reap; The misty valley is where I sleep. It holds old racing thoughts that grew too steep; Now they lay intertwined in me. With the fields and the bushes and the birds and
- [A Riddle Unasked](https://tansterhub.uk/a-riddle-not-asked/): [Written: 2024-08-30] My word, my being you now acquest, An object of possession - I am possessed. An insatiable gaze - your infinity calling, Feeling exposed - morality falling. Take now my broken soul, I can trade it again for a delicate hold. You are a sensation hotter than hell-fire, God plus the devil, my
- [Arriving at the Beginning?](https://tansterhub.uk/arriving-at-the-beginning/): [Written: 2024-08-08] I believe that two separate beings known as God created all of life that exists; or will exist. It somehow mapped out infinity before or after it existed so that the other could exist. And we all lived infinite lives before we had even started; until it's work was done. Now we only
- [The Extricating Sense of a Life Bound by Infinite Restraints](https://tansterhub.uk/the-extricating-sense-of-a-life-bound-by-infinite-restraints/): 2024-08-25 In anybody's life, we are bound by infinite restraints and boundaries; rules and regulations; limits and consequences. We somehow all see and feel it as a negative. From the childhood bullies at primary and secondary school that make us second guess our own rite to walk the earth; from the acne that knocks down
- [As I Lean Towards You, I Start to Lean into Myself and Begin to Wonder](https://tansterhub.uk/as-i-lean-towards-you-i-begin-to-lean-into-myself-and-begin-to-wonder/): 2024-08-23 Now I reach my half life, my half expected lifespan, my apparent mid-life crisis I find myself feeling incomplete. I do not know why, can't understand it or justify it. I have a beautiful wife, a supportive family, I am lucky enough to receive exception care from the NHS, yet still I seek for
- [I Cannot Change the World; and it's Not my Place to Change it; But...](https://tansterhub.uk/i-cannot-change-the-world-and-its-not-my-place-to-change-it-but/): 2024-08-23 With my head always so easily ready to slip and spin out of control; to continue down into the depths of questioning what is the true reality of the fabric of the world; pulling at every thread of the foundations of our true natures; to go hurtling down the next easily accessible rabbit whole;
- [I Was Once](https://tansterhub.uk/i-was-once/): 2024-08-20 I was once confused by the overstimulation of your angelic touch, Wondering why there was so much chaos left on Earth and it wasn't just us. I was unbound by your vision that burned reality to an unreal core, Millenia drifted by as I answered an oath that you swore. I was crushed with
- [The Sleeping Monsters in the Shadows of Us](https://tansterhub.uk/the-sleeping-monsters-in-the-shadows-of-us/): 2024-08-19 I was once privileged to be shared a belief that another Bi-Polar person had had delusions they possessed super powers and believed in monsters. I was honoured because these thoughts have circled my mind before, sometimes as if taking over the whole river of my subconscious and clouding it with dark shadowy and murky
- [A Grounding Detachment from the Universe](https://tansterhub.uk/a-grounding-detachment-from-the-universe/): 2024-08-17 As I woke into a blurred state of consciousness induced by a rather off balancing and new to me (both in quantity and from requiring zero mental health medication immediately previously) cocktail of medication few months back, an inner monologue began. I was in the middle of a temporary breakup from my wife and
- [The Splinter in the Mind that I Cannot Find](https://tansterhub.uk/a-splinter-in-the-mind-that-i-cannot-find/): 2024-08-17 On a daily basis I question my whole reality; my whole life; all the choices that I have made in it and whether or not I actually had a choice; if my life is a true reflection of me / the world / the universe / life in general / life less general; and
- [Living in the Space Between Spaces of a Dew Drop](https://tansterhub.uk/living-in-the-space-between-spaces-of-a-dew-drop/): 2024-08-16 I have often felt suspended in the world in manner that others don't visually appear to be. It feels the same as a dew drop suspended in a spiders web on a spring morning, not having any hands to grab onto anything (metaphorically speaking) and not knowing if I will lose my adhesion and
- [How the World Translates in a Brain with Bi-Polar](https://tansterhub.uk/anybody-want-to-tell-me-what-is-going-on-in-my-brain-today-please-anybody/): 2024-08-09 I believe that 2 separate beings what we could only explain as an entity called God were responsible for the creation of all life that exists today. It some how mapped out infinity before it existed, so that anything could exist. We all lived infinite lives before we had even started, until it's work
- [A Broken Man that is yet to Say](https://tansterhub.uk/a-broken-man-that-is-yet-to-say/): 2024-08-08 As I stare at the blank page, I can't feel the words I need to say. My woman, I need to find the most powerful and unsaid words in existence, so that I can justify binding my love to you. But, how can I do this without damaging your delicately placed and wondrously graceful
- [My Mind is Taken](https://tansterhub.uk/my-mind-is-taken/): 2024-08-07 My eyes hold me on yours, My hands touch your skin, blindly exploring new worlds of unrivalled sensations. My imagination is now your body rolling with beauty, I guard myself with distance so I can memorise your complexities. My pain and suffering disappear as I feel your pull. An infinite world is wasted on
- [The Loss of Loss](https://tansterhub.uk/the-loss-of-loss/): 2024-08-07 It is said that you are only truly free when you lose everything. This is true. You also gain everything; in the form of yourself, true family and friends. Now we have a conundrum: We have have lost everything that we thought centred us and are grieving for it - And now we have
- [My Cupid](https://tansterhub.uk/my-cupid/): 2024-08-06 Her sexiness and love. Her Intelligence and beauty. Her understanding and vulnerability. This is what attracts me, My love. My wonder, My lust. My passion. How do I deserve all this forgiveness. Your gentle skin. The gold behind your eyes. And the blue electricity spawned from the words that you speak. Definitions and worlds
- [Forgive me if I am Quiet Today](https://tansterhub.uk/forgive-me-if-i-am-quiet-today/): 2024-08-03 Forgive me if I am quiet today, my mind cannot hold any more words right now. It's not anything that you have done, nor is it a dislike for you that I have. It is not anything that you have done at all. It is the endless words that have come from endless directions,
- [My Wife: The One whom Saves my Life](https://tansterhub.uk/my-wife-the-one-whom-saves-my-life/): 2024-07-23 I came to realise (after being pointed out with perfect timing – thanks MoBear x) that I often forget to mention the most crucial person in life in my posts. I feel this may be as I am subconsciously trying to make my situation feel impersonal to me. The reasons for this being are
- [My Waking Eyes](https://tansterhub.uk/my-waking-eyes/): 2024-07-22 As I wake into new worlds created from different perspectives I feel carried, cared for and loved.The pain I once felt coarse through my brain as if it were an alien breaching the walls of its captivity to escape to somewhere more peaceful is dispersing.It seems sometimes I can observe my mind as if
- [Swirling Time](https://tansterhub.uk/swirling-time/): Swirling in the mind of an infinite world of choices. One choice first has to be made to make another obtainable, whilst the same choice locks out the possibility of other paths; and the choices on them. Forever it can seem we tie up a loose end to move forward to the bigger picture, but
- [The Voices and the Band-aid](https://tansterhub.uk/the-voices-and-the-band-aid/): A sentient human being can understand that the self analysing of ones memories come with voices; be it with ones own narrative or filled in ones that ones own imagination has conjured. A sentient human being should know it is impossible to answer "do you hear voices" perfectly. A sentient human being also can probably
- [The Mirror and the End of Endings](https://tansterhub.uk/the-mirror-and-the-end-of-endings/): What sits in the mirror is a reflection that taunts us, A false image of a tiny part of us ever changing it flickers and flaunters. While a reflection of what humans are truly capable of sits in the other mirror known as the Television, A reflection of human ingenuity; creativity; love and a propensity
- [One to another](https://tansterhub.uk/one-to-another/): We the world shall be your voice when you are unheard. And we shall be your ears when you can't speak. And then we grow.
- [Inspired by life's poets: Birth and rebirth of human nature.](https://tansterhub.uk/inspired-by-lifes-poetry-birthday-and-rebirth-of-human-nature/): Nobody told us that all we need to grow is light, What's that? An explosion, a fire ignite, A fight and a fright, A love to hold on to tight. Then day becomes night, And night sits far away. Your imagination begins to sway. The power of love that you can't keep at bay, To
- [The Bi-Polar Black Hole](https://tansterhub.uk/the-bi-polar-black-hole/): In my "gammy" bi-polar brain, it feels as is if my mind and / or body gets fired instantaneously through a humongous black hole; that resides in the centre of the universe; and then back again - at random and as if in the past future and present, all at once. Sometimes I can learn
- [Particles, us and size.](https://tansterhub.uk/particles-us-and-size/): Sometimes we look at others and see giants. This may also be what they see in you. But the actual truth of the matter is that we are all tiny particles; but all are far from insignificant.
- [Breath of Life](https://tansterhub.uk/breath-of-life/): We the world are your breathing apparatus; as you are our breath.
- [Growing Pains and Warm Hearts](https://tansterhub.uk/growing-pains-and-warm-hearts/): Growing up can feel like being an ant amongst God's. It can feel like learning every lesson taught; then relearning them, then learning new over complicated methods that to the boil down to the same thing; then relearning it all. But with every step of the way the results produced are regarded as less quality
- [The Doctor & the Doctors](https://tansterhub.uk/the-doctor-the-doctors/): On occasion it feels that no matter what I say or do, I don't get heard by these people that reside on the cutting edge of everything. And sometimes it's as if they are more like giant sized children, throwing medication like candy towards the direction of our throats. It also seems obvious that they
- [The indivisibility of big and small.](https://tansterhub.uk/the-indivisibility-of-big-and-small/): Life is good. We are a whole and a part. We are a part of the equation and the equation itself. What a wonderful world we are caught in.
- [Another Theory of Everything.](https://tansterhub.uk/the-theory-of-everything/): “Current theories of how the universe began state ‘in the beginning, there was nothing, and then it exploded’. People are always looking for the ultimate start.” This is a paraphrase from the author Sir Terry Pratchett. From this I conclude that people are also looking for the ultimate end; a completion of knowledge; a way
- [Today, I Am Choice Paralysis](https://tansterhub.uk/today-i-am-choice-paralysis/): [Written: 2024-06-13] Certain words and phrases capture my attention. This moment; 'choice paralysis'. In a first world country; with many means to my disposal; I have no career path to follow; no family to protect other than that of which I inherited; and no interest of which, I can freely choose to follow. I sit
- [Earthen Hearts](https://tansterhub.uk/earthen-hearts/): Our hearts are our earth. In people the lead us to love, to home, to safety, to family and friends; they ground us. Similarly in electrical systems they stop electric shocks; the lightning felt when hit by the electricity hits. But the pain felt, the knowledge undeniable that it was real, but at least the
- [How Conflict appears in an insane brain.](https://tansterhub.uk/how-conflict-appears-in-an-insane-brain/): I have been pondering why the world can feel so turbulent in a world where everybody has the answer. The only conclusion I have is we all feel balanced, so when somebody puts us in the middle of their argument, we want no part of it as we don't want to take sides. But the

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